Tonight is just a beautiful night. I’ve just come back from a family dinner @ Winter Warmers & Straits Quay. Straits Quay is such a beautiful place which I think everyone should pay a visit to. Strolling thru’ the wharf , looking at the amazing night view of this island, feeling the cold wind brushed thru’ my cheeks & taking tonnes of photos with my adorable cousin brothers were simply great. I haven’t been feeling so good lately. 18 days to go to my final which will determine where will I further my studies next year, this feeling is not good, trust me. I’m slacking still, which is not a good thing & I just feel lost. Being paranoid about everything.
Few days ago, I hung out with my two besties at hometown in the evening. We drove to the nearby cafe while talking in the car. We talked about how our life were recently & I was just happy for one of my besties who had finally found her true love. Three of us had been friends for more than ten effing years & of course, it’ll still counting. At that moment when she told us that she’s in a relationship with one of our old friends now, I was like oh my gosh, was this true ? Four of us ( included her current boyfriend ) knew each other from primary school. He was the class monitor & I was the assistant monitor. She fell for him when both of  ’em were in standard four I guessed. Then, eight years gone & now they’re having a relationship. Isn’t this sweet ? I just couldn’t believed it when she told me that he confessed to her last week, she told us that she was just too happy & it was just like a dream came true. I nearly cried in the car at that moment ‘cos I was just too touched. [smiles]
When I wanted to get down from the car, they passed me something & claimed that it was my late eighteen years old birthday present. I was so so surprised when I took it out from the paper bag, it was a beige colour photo album which contained a lot of my photos. I looked so ugly when I was a freshman in secondary school & I seriously wanted to frame it & clenched it on the wall. [laughs]. Each of my old friends wrote notes for me & I couldn’t believe that my ex-classmate who is currently in KL now written a note for me too! They printed out their photos & stick the notes besides it on every page of the album. I felt touched from what they’d done for me & I was blessed to have those real friends in my life. I’d gone thru’ a lot of things when I was in high school & I really thought that I didn’t even have a friend whom was trustworthy & I felt really bad all the time. I always told myself that nobody would care for me & I was the one who always got left behind but I never knew that they’re actually stood up for me & stayed beside me. They never left me when I was having my worst year in high school & I simply couldn’t thanks ’em enough.
Besides, I received a text message from him last week. Years gone & everything changed but the only thing that never changed was the love that he gave to me. He told me he’d given up on me but still, he would always love me. When he really found someone like me, then he’d move on. If not, it was better to stay in this way. I didn’t know what should I reply him. I just didn’t want to be something that stopped him from searching his own happiness. I wondered, why he just couldn’t forget the past & focus on his future ? He told me that the only reason was he loved me too deep & too much. I felt so guilty because I couldn’t give him anything.
Emotional enough.
Anyway, I think I shall hit the sack now. It’s nearly two o’clock in the morning & I’m so sleepy. Goodnight guys. I need some sleeps.
Little Raindrops. 